Perhaps you had been quietly pushing it all out of your mind. Letting it exist in some far corner seen only out of the corner of your eye. That star that shone so long as you didn’t look directly at it. You’re a frighten animal sure that if you don’t move you’ll survive. Not so.
The day after a hurricane or tornado is a beautiful day–wide, clear, and bright. You see the wreckage of your life all in plain sight. Now you know where you belong, what you need to do, and what to do next.
There is no preparedness only ongoingness.